~ why not come to me ~ am I not

worthy really ~ blind insanity ~

~ Lay with me before the dawn ~

~ Stay forever in my dreams ~

#GoodnightMyLove

I only surrender wholly to thee

You are my Night my Love

I am with None as I am with You

Every night my Love

You take Me where no other can

Again tonight my Love

You know because You are

I am

Forever Night my Love

~ on the edge of consciousness ~ drifting in and out ~

~ places to see people to do ~ yet Im totally worn out ~

~the path of one complete~

unconditional one n all

~mourning loss living joy~

#wagamuffin

~ into eternity ~ just out of reach ~

~reality breach ~ shattered moments ~

~sparrow huddled against ponga trunk ~ shelter from the wind and rain ~

~inside silence own~

quiet universe of one

~out of reach alone~

#nonsensemostlymine

~ been no where ~ done no thing ~ am no one ~

#nonsensemostlymine

~ the heart sings loud sings clear ~ the mind muddies her song ~

#favourite

~ As you slip away you take my heart ~

~ The piece you had from the start ~

~ Be well Sweet One I wish you peace ~

~ I shall go console my grief ~

#1yearago

Dark breeze through the trees...

Who whispers on the wind...

Suburban sounds through eerie silence...

It's time to go in...

Im Fighting Sleep I Shall Surrender

Unto The Deep Beyond

What I Know

Time in the Twitterverse is twisted n tweaked.

Can know someone a day feels like sweet weeks...

Clouds drift across the moon.

But it will not rain soon.

On the land or in my heart,

they are just a part.

My mind simply expresses what is in my heart...

I shall think of ways to keep the two apart...

It is cold out. Will venture in.

Goodnight Eternal View.

The dark nights speckled light a universe away.

~ To Inspire Growth ~

~ Not Dependency ~

~ Is Rewarding ~

~ In Itself ~

"But where do I find true beauty?"

"You must seek within, for without you'll not find."

'Your warmth caresses ~ Savour

scent on breeze ~ I see you bloom

~ I hear you sigh ~ Nature my kind of guy'

~ To trap a dream in cybertime, a virtual dream Id have ~

WHY JUSTIFY I. WHO ARE YOU.

mmm I drown in you... Love... Sanity... I find in you... mmm sweet sleep

mmm I miss you... the mortal world drags... Im home I belong... mmm

hmm... sleep is wanting to take me...I fight without might...it feels funky I like...

drift ~ sea of dreams...

...indeed we know not

who the 'they' may be.

Could be 'you' could be 'me'.

I only know that the 'they' they be... o.O

In a hero's breathe...

Does beat my heart...

My mind drifted

as body relaxed

a cool breeze on my skin.

Birds chirped incessantly

during my moment of silence.

#1yearago

~ Each our own path walk ~

~ We can keep company part the way ~

~ Each our own path walk ~

#1yearago

I summon sleep!

Embrace me in your depths.

I ask eternally?

You say No.

#2yearsago

#twitter...

Twitter is borrowing the avatars,

theyre getting busts made of everyone...

#2yearsago

This was inspired

when all avis on twitter disappeared

there have been some amusing hiccups

that were enjoyed on a global scale in twitter.

To Sear with Sword.

To Wound with Word.

To Lessen with Lust.

So Fucked Up.

#2yearsago

mmm... your scent divine...

your warmth caresses my lips...

my tongue excites... mmm coffee

#2yearsago

Poetwee revisited

cleaning out my twitter favourites.

M = H3 x L360 ~ the measure of a man is the volume of his heart and the distribution of his love ~ 31 July 10

- Only Dr Who the Lord of Time can heal my heart in the blink of an eye - 31 July 10

~ the heart sings loud sings clear ~ the mind muddies her song ~ 31 July 10

~ your grasp too rough ~ your mind too brittle ~ your love too wrong ~ 30 July 10

~ I shant question ~ why ~ for I ~ need no longer ~ know ~ 30 July 10

~ oblivion waits for me ~ 28 July 10

- time sways in grey - no rush or delay - just grey - a time piece - will shatter such illusion - deluded I'll ignore - just sway in grey - 23 July 10

- Iced the air - shivers me timbre - a sorry song - 23 July 10

- up I must - for Ive snoozed - through all alarms - 23 July 10

Morning intrudes - I try to hide - in sleep - she finds me - undercover 23 July 10

#I . my soul sought understanding . placed me where . Id best learn . with teachers . situations . lessons . i am . here to know . the physical . feed the soul . 2 July 10

#Lifedlive ~ The past our guide - The present our path - The future our journey ~ #WeAreNow #NowIsGood 29 Jun 10

- my mind like an abyss - how is it I havent drowned - #depth #eternity 29 Jun 10

~ girlish laugh ~ grey of mane ~ your star still shines ~ today #grandmother 22Jun10

~ By Eve's transgression ~ Loneliness inherent ~ #ByWayOfEden 21 Jun10

#lifecycle ~ reassessing ~ depossessing ~ reassessing ~ addressing ~ reassessing ~ progressing reassessing ~ digressing ~ reassessing ~ processing ~ #bloom 21 Jun10

#shortestday ~ twas a short day ~ yet so long ~ in getting done ~ its only one ~ 21 Jun 10

~ anxiety whirls ~ whips ~ sanctity of slumber ~ definite departure ~ torn ~ aching ~ 21 Jun 10

~ Life is a canvas ~ many layers ~ many times ~ You'll be mine ~ #love #life 14 Jun 10

Juicy Fruit

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtw4E_DoWSE

I loved this song when I was like 12!

I draw lines where none should be

See what none can see

Am what I am

no interested parties

For so long I've been away

In that time I longed for you

Now I'm back I ignore you

For I remember your lack

Of interest

Now I have returned

It is remembered

By me of you

~dis~connect~ed~

I used to think my cyber life was all and more to me
But lately my connectedness has been so little and fleeting
I miss you all but am enjoying life
A quandary when I think
Of the many cyber friends I have
But will likely never meet
The separateness so obvious I ponder how that some
Can incorporate so beautifully both cyber and humdrum

~ Humanity Shows ~

~ bitten of nail ~

~ painted of toe ~

~ still anxiety grows ~

~ atmosphere thinning ~

~ no-one is winning ~

~ realities are starting to blow ~

~ grief in abundance ~

~ real reality show ~

~ random love flows ~

~ mortality tested ~

~ traumatised living souls ~

~ one humanity shows ~

~ After Burn ~

An after thought once more...

I was hopeful...

But doubt my fickle friend...

Has returned again...

No promises made...

No promises broken...

Nothing to lose...

But my delusion...

~New Zealand's Longest Week~

22-02-11 ~ 01-03-11

Two minutes observed

For those who fell

By Mother Natures wrath

Once Paradise now Hell

As We mourn the Many

New Life is born

Fresh from the Ashes

To a People Forlorn

At the bottom of the World

We are not Forgotten

Nations reach out

Gifting Own wanting nothing

An Eternal week of Devastation

Families and Friends fret

Fear deep during Separation

Open hearts and mind set

Christchurch we hear You

Share your Pain your Grief

May your Missing be found soon

Humanity Prays for Thee

~One Life~

~ cyberspace ~ not worth the paper ~ written on ~

me see

~ so involved in self ~ in old grievances ~ in new little toys ~ distractions from others ~ whom may need ~ use or avoid ~ wanting something more ~ just because I can ~ needing everything ~ money house man ~ not seeing all beauty ~ right here at my feet ~ in the smile of my son ~ the quiet in the street ~ looking out ~ hoping to see ~ past brooding me ~

O. D. D. O. M

~ overdosed on exercise ~

~ mind too tired to write ~

~ thoughts too fast to read ~

~ eyes to heavy to see ~

~ balance is what I need ~

~ to be healthy be free ~

Go inside once again,

to stabilise my mind,

validate my heart,

heal my wounds.

we worry over our impact upon our earth mother...

but we can now witness the world over...

mother takes no shit...

in a matter of weeks she leaves 1000s homeless...

takes lives without conscience...

we have created much...

many terrors, yet we are vunerable...

our universal cycle too big to comprehend, continues...

regardless of what we might do to the air waters, land...

learning to love and respect mother earth should be a natural whim...

we should worry about our soul...

our inability to love, living life one another...

we shall destroy ourselves, before we do our mother...

much of humanity worship undead, unreal, fame fantasy...

the cycle is culling, I wonder who and what will make the cut...

A magical night

of light

and wonder

reflection and hope

Love blooming high

in the night

vibrant by sight

felt under feet

HAPPY NEW YEAR

sheltered from the masses

resting in the shade

breathing in darkness

cooling weary pain

RiPpLe

Why am I...

The one who waits...

What is it...

That makes me so...

Then feel an idiot...

For having done...

When I am...

Not thought of...

Could likely cease...

To exist...

Without ripple...

Or effect...

lovesick

my worry is making me sick...
my heart a novelty ripped...
you unaware of all this...
as in another find bliss...

Uncertainty certainly runs deep...
Weighing reeling within me...
My all given taken with ease...
Nothing to show or appease...
What becomes of me...

Grow and Go...

You once were this...

Yet now youre that...

I taught you this...

You taught me that...

I am leaving...

You are to...

We grow we go...

Forward further...

Learning Life...

Leaving lessons...

Grow and Go...

a shot of grey...
out of the blue...
its not you...

my malaise...
holds no truth...
just blue of hue...

revisit past haunts...
lil substance taunts...
colour me blue...

dissecting thoughts...
restoring rapport...
coming through...

a spark of hope...
momentum gain...
forward reign...

Charity lurks,
waiting to pounce,
on the weak,
the unsuspecting.



Charity wrings,
blood from stone,
bread from bone,
of the poor.



Charity shines,
in the baubles,
with celebrity,
no anonymity.



Charity blatant,
more game,
more gain,
no shame.

#AsItComes

as the great cycle turns to end, and start, I watch in awe so small, my part,

which without a void, there'd be, a special one, only of me,

the future of I know not, yet great is the hope Ive got,

time a constant, love a plenty, truth abound in humanity.

#ItShallCome

I count my blessings and soothe my sorrows. #happiness



If tomorrow never comes, what could I have done. #mortal




By Eve's transgression, loneliness inherent. #ByWayOfEden




#lifecycle... reassessing . depossessing . reassessing . addressing . reassessing . progressing . reassessing . digressing . reassessing . processing . #bloom



anxiety whirls, whips, sanctity of slumber, definate departure, torn, aching.




Monday morning dawning, grey and warm, fickle winter, shortest day.




#quitter... overcome... dependancy... alone... always



#letting go
choose to chill. evade the ill.
harrowed mind. seek to find.
I shant miss. my due bliss.
I choose to chill.





infinite thoughts ricochet in the stream

leaving sleep without dreams

#flow

stasis mind . yearns . judges . loser . self . sacrifice . shares...

transient heart . loves . gifts . grows . teaches . seeks . finds . shares...

#bless
may you always...
see the beauty before you...
and not lose heart...





#alloytinmint embracing now... ignoring ego... making like a droid



I catch my breath. not saying. what. my heart thinks. or my mind feels




#frown
confusing simplicities
innocent pain
growing complexities
redistributing pain




in a tangle . what a mess . i guess it . was best left . #knitting #knot

my life in poetwees moons ago

life an experiment

many tests and controls

seeming random results

through chaos resolves

true magic

#InTheory #Of Thought.

understanding

the pathway

to gnosis.

My mortality... inferiority... I see in others lives...

My significance in mirror... I exorcise...

pain of chest... Silent resolve...

Im just... of human mould...

#live #learn.

in others we may see, the wrinkles we might, iron out of ourselves #learning #growing.

cease and desist

Time

my elusive friend

I wish

to enjoy your gift.

moments... made magical... memories.

My mortality... wafts frequently... through my mind... have to wonder why...

#life #flight #fancy.

living each breath... loving each lie... time goes by... #AllGood.

winter 2010 #poetwee

You shine bright. But you are weak. Tempt us out. Leaving us. To frost bite. #winter #sun




Your coldness leaves me static
Not wanting to be wrapped in your chill
Yet............
Not ready to move on
#winter #AboutADay




I wipe moisture from your panes
Testament of captured breath
I open you to a new day
So you can breathe again
#winter #wet



a shadow over chest.
so cold. so hot.
so...
I know. not what.
#winter #ills

Cloud like The Nexus through steel blue sky... #OminousSky

#Begone

For the life of me

radio raises the ghost

coincidence

consequence

how can I not remember

begone you pained

have lessons yet to learn

we werent

merely fleshmen

#remembrance

#GhostlyFear

you paralyse me still

ghosting through my dreams

held against my will

no-one can help

me

#remembrance

#SaltAndBurn

I thought

Id laid my ghost to rest

Clearly I have not

Haunted corridors n dreams

Bind me to the fear

Salt and Burn

I cannot

This ghost solid alive

I wrap my heart in leaden grief

My mind strength of spirit

Even in the waken state

I still feel him

#remembrance

cold feet...

warm hearth...

smoke chokes...

unwilling...

scent lingers...

after...

on cat...

#winter #warm

time ticks...

on...

faster than slow... goes... an eternity...

maybe... who knows...

time ticks...

off...

#secs #mins #hours

strong it beats alone...

its own rhythm...

other comes it flutters...

unashamedly so...

#onelove #ownlove

A special day...
Celebrated...
Loved...
Precious memories made...
For the youngest...
For the oldest...
Togetherness...
Sharing...
Warmth...
Laughter wafting free...
Fun alive humming...
Cullen's 13th year...

'a moment'

shelter me

if you must

but let me

see the sky

weeping heart

alone

exposed

so random

09:21 23-06-2010

light of sky

dark of earth

soon to reverse

sometimes the effort exceeds the reward
then sets in regret
I must remember to give and let go
knowing my peace
satisfied with being in the state to give
it being the reward
I must remember others not just I

a thousand words

...

and in my mind...
you mean more to me...
as I...
to you do...
but only in my mind...
love is blind...

boxed in

it seems

separate from them

just

one step

into momentum

a human number

squared

linear descend

cold and crisp

Birch of Silver

permanent sway

gnarly life

brightens the day

my ward
onward
forward
toward
reward

Happy Birthday Annie

A day of happiness many moons ago...

Has brought many a happy days for me...

Others of whom Im sure will certainly agree...

Your wit and charm delivered, disarm...

A mind is needed, swift...

To wrangle wits with you, he whom has the gift...

Of distance some, at times, a lengthy void...

But we ebb and flow, highs n lows...

Return to wrestle wills, and pose...

A fair year I hope youve had...

With a better one yet to come...

Have a most beautiful life, full of fun...

Wishing you the best!

Happy Birthday Annie

xoxoxo

my substance lost in ether...

I must journey alone to retrieve...

the life force unique to me...

my strength weakens,
as I cling to you,
I lose my ability,
to see,
to move,
to live,
and love.

I am my own,
worst enemy,
best friend,
I see,
I move,
I live,
and learn,
to love,
ME

angels do not announce themselves

We each have a path...

Not everyone is off to see the wizard...

Some know they are the wizard...

Others the path...

It's all much of a muchness...

Insanity can be contagious and dangerous.

Hand sanitizer is inefficient.

Tin foil hat to be worn at all times.

QUALITYquality

qualityQUALITY

QUALITYquality
qualityQUALITY

im mortal

So conflicted is the

mind no the heart no

the head no

I

A glimpse of serenity...

her gift to me...

No postering or pose for the daisy.
When the sunshines they bask.
When the sky rains they close.
No teaching just naturally grow.

Mauao once the nameless mountain

who was caught by the dawn.

Sits now like our sentry.

Our maunga is Mauao.

The finest of architects,

must've design these...

... I shall dream ...

... of He...

...who dreams...

...with me...

... steady He's my rock...

... My Journey Man...

#love #dream #MvC

Poetwee #soul #search

suffer

in silence

says other

no violence

of body

or mind

just

suffer

in silence

-body mortal-

tired soul

a transient trapped

in tactile emotional phase

-fade out when done-

_ I wonder _

_ what of me _

_ is you _

_ of you _

_ is me _

_ betwixt insanities _

_ did I leave _

_ to return to _

_ you of me _

I knit in straight lines

My mind drifts a fractious web

Both without apparent end

The tacky weave hath no beginning

- Your mirror warped -

- By tainted heart -

-Can see no truth -

-It is too dark -

June2010

I see

the lines

I paved

in mothers face

I see

life acceptance

in grandmothers grace

I see

mortality

in my childs eye

I see

immortality

in the deep stardust night

June 2010

POETWEE

2months 3weeks

in darkness hidden away

none know

our play

hush

crush

love

lust

- be my proxy in a reality bite -

- have been vamped now no fight -

- be my proxy cyber right -

in the now

stasis

deny emo

be void

observe

no lie

yet deny

own humanity

- Pattern of path -

- Proofing future vein -

- Faith flows through -

- Subtle changing same -

As Sandman comes,

I release,

becoming one,

insync inside,

of no mind,

I am.









Sleepless



In lethargy



I wrestle slumber



but why



in waiting



for what



nothing



it seems...

#silentnight

Into the darkness - lawn wet chills toes -

- I inhale -

Sharp dark air - excited - I raise my head -

- Stare into eternity-

mortal strength

- assuredly I say -

- it will all be well -

- not by my word -

- but as -

- the universal would have it -

- I am not faith -

- nor fate -

- but am -

- as the universal would have it -

" Fate fills in the blanks. Faith calms the turmoil."

Poetwee May-June

- Friday Rain -

heavy she falls
foresaking none
quenching one and all
on this the last day




#egotional

... beyond themselves they cannot see... mountain out of a molehill...



- profound malice -
- of a nurturer -
- the ego tripped over -
- vibrant enmity stewed -
- shared disease -
- hate wash over -
- away from me -




...fickle day... hot no cold... highs and lows...
...mind slown inside out... home sweet house...




- dried fruit and nuts an autumn suger sprinkle to sustain my weary mind -




#nonightowl

- sated day - patient night - will of wake - does subside -



#rhymeforseason

- autumn rain- clean the sky-
- make it shiny new-
- what wonders- she can do-




#lovebug

... solace in eyes of stormy sea...

...overwhelming ocean am I...

...two ships in the night...

- once shy-
- then bitten-
- I again smitten-




... converse with self...
... worst enemy...
... only friend...
... faithful truce...



- solemn sway in moonlight - pallid swatch of skin - the undead regal dance -




... scented words...denying heart... lapses in love...



#gumbootwalk

- excitement stirs the water -
- weightless hearts and minds -
- freedom splashing joy -


- naked feet hit pavement -
- rush home to dry clothed warmth -
- return and feed hunger -
- wonderful morning jaunt -


#morningmagic

victory in puddles
walk the drunken bridge
serenade from trees
shiver in soaken threads



#morning

torrent has ceased
silence deafening
await the day




#morningglory

... I rise... quite unlike a phoenix... from the ashes of my dreams...



#autumnrainsreflect

...reflection... in the puddles ... of summer long gone ...



#briefistime

... a space... a breath... a moment... a ppreciate...



#autumnrains

Gumboots splash in puddles...
hair ringlets in rain...
exaltant in the grey...



... Only time pieces... marked the flow... of the day...

Thursday...

Reflection...

Natural...

Meditation...

Walking...

Today...

Procrastination,

threw itself at my feet,

I stepped over it...

admired,

silver,

strong,

proud.