Our Minds Limited By Our Physical Nature

We are each of us a spark of pure vibrant energy...
Resonating in an environment more connected, more brilliant than we know...
We effect this force with our deepest thoughts, our obvious actions...
Insecure we follow the masses, yearning for meaning, and/of disaster...
We do not trust basic instinct, looking for answers outside our own...
Trusting others fears and bias, becoming one with those...
We feed each other dulling radiance slowing the natural flow...
Eternal the search has been, our faith raw in a wisemans hands...
We adore who preach, after life, miracle cures, magic potions for longevity...
Acceptance, understanding of our true infinite nature, few even seek...
We see death as a finality, though truly most believe in more...
Segregated communities, religion, wealth, education and race...
We are keeping busy in this tangible finite space, numbing the need to know...
Scared of ourselves and neighbours, our food the very air we breath...
We have become the collective mind of all that is negative, our wants now needs...
If only we knew our true beauty, there would be nought to fear...
We can look for all that is positive, in ourselves and the entire universe...
Infect the world with love and promise celebrating each and every exchange...
We are each of us a spark of pure vibrant energy, lets share...

Where are you...
I wish I knew...
Secret safe secure...
A pure smile...
Beyond all I know...
You dwell unseeing...
We see very little...
Who ignites you...
This realm supports you...
You care not...
It Is As Is...
Where are you...

Intelligent Life...
More than just us...
Humanity's ego...
May fall eyes new...
We Are...
What is will come...
My Mirror...
Can I stare down...
Deep Ache...
As history tells all...
Skeleton Soul...
Brace for simple trues...

In wetness I walk,
your fall grounding fluid galaxia.
Refreshing my senses stale,
cleansing of dead centre calm.
Coverings of self insubstantial,
you seep deep cooling heat.
Stares of the bizarre,
why am I in you.
I remember my child,
running ecstatically in your freedom.
The sacrifice of adult,
seeming immense natures tears joyous.
You have always been,
I an infant in your wake.
My indulgence in you,
keeps heart and mind open.

Karma Camelia

Karma in this lifetime, Ive yet to payback, I guess...
My journey seeming a simple but unending test...
I do not wish for riches, I want, what I need...
But still at times it seems too much even without greed...
So I figure that my life thus far, filled with many bones...
Is being tallied pros and cons til I payback what I owe...
Or could it be Im suppose to strive and reach some unknown goal...
If thats the case Im bound and gagged in my own self dug hole...
Im trying to be all that I can, though my confidence is fleeting...
Maybe trust in self, is the grade of scale, the mission to achieving...
Blindly I shall continue on, with some stress but little haste...
When all I wish, is that I leave, a smile on every face...

I sludge through this viscous...
Near solid its weight...
Physically apparent...
Only in my mind...
Breathe is short...
Sense is not...
Inhale...
Release...

WHY...

For all the shit I spout about living in the now...
Tryna swallow my own medicine it just aint goin' down...
Of course I choose to live in the very recent past...
Im sure Im just confused, mind mush, tortured heart...
Where to go from here, Im writing, best place, I guess...
Next step will be to try n separate ego from this mess...
Faced with simplest facts no doubt I hope to find...
That yet again Ive let my heart runaway with my mind...

At this time,
At this moment,
I despair,
To reconcile,
Only I.

In this time,
In this moment,
Ego dies,
Faux falls,
Reconcile I.

Of this time,
Of this moment,
Fear flees,
Truth shines,
I am I.

when we stop expecting immortality,

we may start to embrace our mortality,

and realise our eternal selves.

The weed despised,

hunted and destroyed,

still stands proud and tall.

Buttercup dance in grassy meadow

Dandelion diamond in rough

I cannot smell the roses on the summer breeze.

But I feel and hear the goodness washing over me.

grasshopper chirp and cricket snore orchestrating summer symphony cicada sound in rustling bluster

As the hawk tries to find his soar...

I try to find my sight...

The sun too bright...

The hawk has gone...

Fear has fenced us in.

In our yards.

In our homes.

Even in our skin.

Sitting out in dappled shade, that sways in baby bluster.

I close my eyes, natures strobing light.

Nicely warming, cool strong breeze.

I've been gone for so long...

Again merging til I cant see...

I'm back and I'm not strong...

Why do I do this, do this to me...

Matters not really, a cyclic thing...

Have the process down pat...

Maybe it's in my genes...

Clean up now Stat...

Forever a Day

In a garden of roses... Lay naked with Love... Chocolate sweet kisses each day... Melt in your arms... Always together if forever apart... Each moment is Love... Celebrate you forever in now... Riches beyond a day... Swept off of our feet... In True Magical Love...

Confusion

Help Myself

Obsession the silent denizen... Rest in deepest darkest abyss... Gentle beast sated sleeping... Balanced light above still waters... I am my own... Strength Love Wisdom of I... As he stirs rising... I teeter very near topple... I weaken focus seek... Strength found you and you... I grasp gasp leech... I blur you shadow me... Strive to calm he... Define renew separate self you... Formidable sheltered safe I... Dredging strength deep coating me... First step battle won... Falls away sleeps again deep... I naked return me...

Naive Bliss

I laugh at my naivety... I guess youre laughing to... But thats okay I would not take, back what I give to you... To share my heart... To share my mind... Brings me pure joy... This life is short... Love is blind... Is not some sinister ploy... So if to you I give my all... Remember simply this... Time continues through the fall... In Spring you were my bliss...

Naked I... Lay Alone... Loving Self... Letting Go... Surrender All... Receiving You... At-one-ment...

My Ghost

Were I to paint you, I'd start with grey.
Such is consuming, in a reflective way.
Though you hurt me, deep inner core.
I'd not trade you, for money or more.
Seduced by sadness, enlightened by grief.
You are closer, than any to me.
Of course you shant leave me, e'en if could.
I'd be the merest shadow, without your good.
The comfort I get, wrapped up in you.
Is unique, of the same there's not two.
I treasure, my morosely overwhelmed ghost.
Forever with me youve been, forever Im host.

Whats Yours Is Not Mine

You know I love these guys...
Just because they are... Yet sometimes theyre absurd... Their hearts and heads so high and deep... In others lives... Their holier than thou ego... Their self righteous stance... To observe such intrusion upon another... They disclose unto me... Im nought... They make it their frustration... Even gloat of their meddling success'... For me uncomfortable... They always dis the absent... Get back in your life and let others be... Organize your own...

To Walk On A Whim

The friend of my son arrived early morn, for his mum an early day start.
Then approximately 30 minutes on, ready to leave but oh, not the car.
So off on foot to school the boys trot, as I curse her, and whatevers wrong. I sit and think avoiding a spot, to focus on what can be done. A rough plan of the day, I have in my head. I start walking then find a way, though other direction a quicker tread. Jandaled and jeaned in a cool breeze, absorbing the sights the sound. Traffic flow a steady ease, cicada song stereo all surround. Into an old friend I happen, a pleasantly brief update. Hes doing much as I had been, an unorganized day. I pay a bill and send a post, feels good almost liberating. Then to a favourite store I ghost, looking at pendants just browsing. Continue on at a comfy pace, meet up with a new friend. Chat about no longer saving face, but loving each moment til end. Finally at mums in shade, I water myself and sit. My sister with hair I help aid, gloved I colour she sits. To hairdresser I drive her, and back to mums for lunch. Then down to my destiny quicker, to do relevant things for my son. A smile from young man unknown, a photo of heron distraught. Chance to pick litter blown, let breeze drift through thought. A day the start frustrated, the path not known unclear. Although over longer road I wafted, had laughs and fun smiles I did share. If I had taken the quickest, would I encountered any like this? It mayhaps have been easier, just so much I would have missed.

Sink in sadness
Stasis grey
Careless
For a way

Free To Be Love

Do dote on me.
Dont leave me cold.
I must needs know. Im whom you hold.
In heart ~ In mind ~ In love

3

THIS IS IT- Im prepared - CHAOS - Calm - RANDOM - Plan

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THIS IS IT- Im prepared - CHAOS - Calm - RANDOM - Plan

1

THIS IS IT- Im prepared - CHAOS - Calm - RANDOM - Plan

zzz...

My night has come. To carry me. Where I desire. Enclosed in his form. I care not. Where I go.

Good Day

Well spent >>> Great relief
Rest up >>> Urge returns
<<< Go again >>>

Musing I smile
I gift You
To gift another
Smile and muse

When he comes
He comes on strong
Though I resist
It wont be long
Before Im his

Give it up - Fear not - Love

~ Skirt on edges ~
~ Cant slot in ~
~ My own circle ~

- Never again
- Is always
- Never
- Never again

~ Drift away ~ Like grey ~
~ On black ~ No light ~

Why an unanswered question.
What could it mean
When will one know
Who shall answer
Where may it lead

~ In dungeon deep ~
~ Lays fester ~

When the window has gone
Jump at random

See how Im feeling
~ I think not ~
You dont want to

...I dreamt of you...
...It was amazing...
...Living the dream...